Day 41

Day 41. I think I finally see that the weekends are screwing me. It's like all the work I did all week, sorta of gets neutralized due to terrible weekend choices. So, this weekend, I'm gonna try nevertheless, once again to reign it in. And have some precooked food already in the fridge.

I'm sitting at 143. How sad. :-( I really hoped to be down a lot more by my birthday (still a month away) but I don't have much motivation - I really enjoy sweets!!

My exercise is on track, though. 5-6 times a week. Twice a week I strength train, with 20-30 mins of cardio before if I can fit it in, 1-2 step classes a week. 1 Yoga class with cardio before if possible. And a combat class,

SO, even though the weights isn't budging as quickly as I like (since I have sabotaged myself every weekend since I started probably) my waist has gone down an inch. Small successes. I always feel as though I write the excuses and am not as hard on myself as some could be. And I think that's true. But, 1 inch less on my waist is success. And I never dreamed I'd be eating a mere 1350 calories a day. I always thought I'd need so much more, based on what all the calories calculators suggest. And I'm finally reaching that place in my schedule where I am committed to going to the gym, even when I don't want to (usually takes a few weeks/months to get excited about the gym, once I've fallen off the band wagon). So, even though, every time I write part of feels like a failure, like I just am not willing, there's a more optimistic part of me coaching myself along, saying, I have done well.

Meh....it's a process. I used to be more intense. I hope to get back there!

Day 19 - Not Impressed

I'm just posting to shame myself really, LOL. I'm currently only about 2 pounds down. Today's official weigh in was 153.4. It could have been better

In the last 19 days, I have had one retreat weekend with students, (no vegetables included), and been sick twice: once with a migraine and nausea, and a week of sinus stuff from the fires burning down all the cedar. Needless to say my fitness road isn't as straight and narrow as I'd like.

I brought veggies on my student retreat ( I was a leader...not a student) but ran out of time and never actually cut them up...therefore I carried them around all weekend on refrigerator bag. 10 points for carrying them with me. 1 million negative points for not eating them. I did make a few healthy choices: drank mostly water all weekend, picked a decent meal at Pei Wei. But it doesn't matter, cinnamon rolls, pancakes and bacon, cookies....it all adds up.

My goal this week is to stay and the mostly straight and narrow, and utilize my skinny cow dream cookies...actually really good! But focus on the weekend. Have some food prepared to eat. The weekends are my pitfall. I get hungry, and lazy, then don't do anything but eat the worst stuff I can find. Or gobble up food I might be making for other people...case in point: Sunday Caleb brought home about 2 dozen cookies and a few brownies to give to his work buddies. By about 11pm, I was pretty hungry, from not eating enough throughout the day anyway. SO what do I do? I cave and make a grilled cheese sandwhich with 2 pieces of cheese, and about 3 huge brownies.....UM, not okay. Seriously: I'm only eating 1350 or so calories a day. My metabolism just isn't that great anymore. Luckily, I've noticed, even when working out, I'm not starving with this many calories, so I think I am ok.

8 weeks till my birthday. And at this point I'd have to have to lose more than a pound a week. Sigh. It's my fault.

That's OK. I'll do better this weekend.

Day 1 - August 2011

So it's a year and a half after the family started their journey on the weight-loss, exercise, nutrition journey. None of us finished the blog journey. In my opinion, it's always hard to do things alone.

I guess I am finding though, many times your health won't be something other people can always help you with. I have some friends I work out with a couple times a week, but I can't manipulate my schedule enough to always be with people I know. So I gravitate to instructors that are fun, or intense. But then, it's all up to me to get my lazy butt out of bed and actually work hard in the gym.

Anyway, a year and a half later, and I am ashamed to say I am 13 pounds heavier than my best days doing the blog!! WHAAAAAAATT!!?? How could that happen!? How could all of 2010's summer clothes NOT FIT!? Well I hurt injured my foot last October, so that stunted some workouts, then in March I really messed up my knee. Both injury cost me me regular workout schedule, and I had to go to physical therapy. And ever since October, it's been a battle to say no to all the junk food! I'm never very disciplined with food, if I'm not disciplined with working out. But that's baloney! I shouldn't trash my body with food, just because I can't workout.

SO, I'm a little bummed, thinking about what a chubster I've become since my injuries, and how I didn't actually have to let that happen.

Today is Day 1 of my short term journey to lose 13 pounds by November 8th - my 27th birthday. And then I'd hope to have my knees in decent condition, so I could start working from then on to get stronger above all else, and even leaner if possible....but I'm not going to think much on the long term...I'll evaluate that a little later.

So, if you get updates from this blog, you may want to quite that...it's just little me, alone, blogging, for my own accountability with myself.

Day 1. Body Pump + Elliptical for 15mins. Caleb and I are on our annual planning retreat, so we at Player's and Tiramasu. More calories than I need and more than I could work off for sure. Tomorrow's a new day. I will work to consume 1350 and no more. And go for a walk.

1 Pound a week for 7 weeks, and 1 pounds for 3 different weeks. Will put me at 142 by November 8th. 27 will be back to the plateau I hope, feeling healthier than now.

91 Days left

Today is the first day since my ski trip, that I really tried a lot harder to count my calories. Although, I made it a point to eat less carbs at night while on Colorado, and I was very intentional about eating veggies on the trip. I had a greens salad just about every night, and brought along some cherry tomatoes and snap peas to keep in my room as a snack. Call me crazy...but I can't survive on peanut butter and jelly sanwiches, cookies and chips all week. My stomach was complaining after the first day of that on the slopes. I did induldge in some awesome frito pie on the last day...I know....one America's fattiest and worst foods out there....but it was worth it. I take pride in the fact that I said I was going to straighten my act up, and I started on WHILE OUT OF TOWN!! Woohoo!!

I still failed miserably at the end of the day today, though, with an extra glass of rum and coke, and half a grilled cheese sandwich.

Tomorrow the real work begins. I must remember to:
A: Have enough food throughout the day ready for me to snack on so I don't get so hungry I binge on something not good
AND B: Save some calories so that I can have a bit of a snack before bed...bedtime snacking kills me, but I'm not ready to give it up, so I'll just have to save some calories for then.

I'm looking forward to more veggies and fruits, more water, and less crap.This week we've already been eating home cooked meals and tons of veggies. And I feel much better.