Day 41

Day 41. I think I finally see that the weekends are screwing me. It's like all the work I did all week, sorta of gets neutralized due to terrible weekend choices. So, this weekend, I'm gonna try nevertheless, once again to reign it in. And have some precooked food already in the fridge.

I'm sitting at 143. How sad. :-( I really hoped to be down a lot more by my birthday (still a month away) but I don't have much motivation - I really enjoy sweets!!

My exercise is on track, though. 5-6 times a week. Twice a week I strength train, with 20-30 mins of cardio before if I can fit it in, 1-2 step classes a week. 1 Yoga class with cardio before if possible. And a combat class,

SO, even though the weights isn't budging as quickly as I like (since I have sabotaged myself every weekend since I started probably) my waist has gone down an inch. Small successes. I always feel as though I write the excuses and am not as hard on myself as some could be. And I think that's true. But, 1 inch less on my waist is success. And I never dreamed I'd be eating a mere 1350 calories a day. I always thought I'd need so much more, based on what all the calories calculators suggest. And I'm finally reaching that place in my schedule where I am committed to going to the gym, even when I don't want to (usually takes a few weeks/months to get excited about the gym, once I've fallen off the band wagon). So, even though, every time I write part of feels like a failure, like I just am not willing, there's a more optimistic part of me coaching myself along, saying, I have done well.

Meh....it's a process. I used to be more intense. I hope to get back there!