Day 74B - Amber

Not sure on calories.

Ate 870 and then I'm not sure about dinner. For dinner I had a talapia almondine (or something like that), Italian Vegetables, and Grilled asparagus. And about 1/3 cup of grape, walnut, blue cheese salad. I didn't eat all the grapes salad, snapped off hard ends of asparagus, and only about half the talapia. But the veggies looked healthy, yet unfortunately greasy...maybe oil...didn't taste like butter. Either way....don't know where that landed me. But I consciously choose to get 2 veggie sides with my healthier entre.

Worked around the church for about 4 hours tonight. This will have to count as my exercise. I certainly thought I'd be home by 8 or so, so I could still go to the gym or ride my bike....but I'm just getting home and it's 1am. YIKES!!

Need more water and more veggies. :-(

Currently, I'm deciding if I should have no more sweets in the house. Nuts, sure. Fruit, sure. But maybe no chocolate to nibble on, no 1 serving of cookies as a moderate dose of my favorite thing to eat.....we'll see if that works for me.

I would really like to be more educated in a healthier lifestyle....luckily today somehow God reminded me about HEB and that I could get a better meal there than from McDonalds. YES!!!! In my mind...it's seems veggies and fish were a better choice. #1 cause they are way more colorful and full of vitamins than the generic FRIED POTATO. #2 This meal seems to be fresher...but am I buying into the idea that perservatives are bad and fresher is healthier....is it even true? #3 I didn't realize the shiny on my food till already purchased, but it just seemed to have less fat. #4 Fish & Omega 3's...instead of red meat.

I'd like to be better educated in:
WHY my body needs weight lifting and cardio.
WHY vegetable and fruit are a necessity and what happens if I don't eat them.
WHAT is happening on the inside of my body when I neglect it through eating "bad" food...or food high in fat...sugar....salt...etc
WOULD IT REALLY BE BETTER not to eat sweets at all(minus fruits yogurt etc...)? Would what I feel is a possible obsession, love, or even addiction be over if that happened?
WILL I ever stop giving in, and be hard core??

And many other's that just aren't coming to mind right now....


I like Brooke's most recent post. Especially just being reminded that we all choose to make excuses for our eating habits and non exercising...our personal choices....but there is no excuse. There is always room for grace, and forgiveness...and of course we all stumble and make bad choices. But what we are doing now reminds me of this teaching by John Piper and a song by Tedashi called "Make War"
Piper says in the beginning of the song: "I hear so many Christians murmuring about their imperfections, and failures, and addictions, and their shortcomings. And I see SO LITTLE war! Murmur, murmur, murmur. "Why am I this way?" MAKE WAR!
John Piper's whole point is...stop making excuses, get your butt into gear, and work so hard (spiritually...ie...loving God, seeking God, obeying God, loving people, abandoning selfishness, etc...) that you feel like you're in a frickin' war!!! Your motivation for fighting your flesh is so strong your willing to sleep in the dessert in a tent and get shot at to do the right thing!!!
Similarly, our motivation to stop making excuses for our eating habits and weak exercising and step up is imperative and can be as hard core as making war. We have a community in which to stay acountable, be motivated, and get help. So...REALLY.....choosing to eat well, and exercise is a personal choice of will. We have the help and people around us to motivate us, but it is ourselves we must MAKE WAR with. WE CHOOSE to be a part of this team. Or not. And I speak to myself when I say this....I mean I gave up for practically 2 weeks, eating whatever the heck I wanted....not OK. I didn't fight at all. I choose. You choose. EACH. PERSONALLY. Make War with what you know is not OK. I mean really guys....kuddos to Brooke (and prolly Steve!) for being the champion of us all....and the rest of us...MAKE WAR!