Bummed - Amber

Reason #1 to be bummed - I'm beginning to wonder about the folks who created this blog and convinced me that I was making a committment...for a year...where they are and how well they are doing in their health endeavors, and if this blog is letting them see their progress or error of their ways at all. I am a little bummed about that. I thought i was supposed to be seeing photos, and daily posts, and even lifestyle changes.....and of course, we all struggle...but AH! Is this yet another failed attempt? Definitely bummed if it is.

Reason #2 to be bummed - I saw my personal trainer today. My body fat percentage is 29.7. I might cry. WTHeck!!? I feel like I've been working so hard.... Leave it to me to be bummed instead of glowing...I mean it IS LESS! ISN'T IT!? Either way, it's not what I had hoped....at least a percent or even 2!!! But no, alas, a measly .3% in body fat. AHHHH!!!!!! I really am screaming and crying on the inside! INWARD TEMPER TANTRUM!! (Thankfully, I have gained a pound of muscle. Thank you, Lord, for the little things. And pardon me while I ungratefully throw a pity-party for the still-too-high body fat percentage - even though I choose to ignore the fact that I am tall, and hide my flaws well, and lots of girls would love to be those 2 things.)

Reason #3 to be bummed - I had to tell my PT several times I just couldn't afford $55 dollars a session 1 to 2 times per week for 3 months to I can really get hard core and kick my butt into gear. I feel like having a gym membership in and of itself is a HUGE blessing and really love that. BUT $55 dollars a session.....I feel doomed, since I can't see her. THIS is stupid. I shouldn't feel that way.

A lot a bit bummed. Can't stay here too long, this is much to be thankful for. But maybe just for a short while.....